Saturday, September 24, 2016
Friday, September 23, 2016
Turned Away
People turn me down as a thief culturally because they are jealous but worship others like me.
Thursday, September 22, 2016
The Hard Life
Being Chinese from your mom and having an older dad. I'm also American. I don't feel really cute. I can't handle emotions. Better to be young and European.
Prejudices
Why would white people tell other races minding their own business in civilization what they want them to be compared to them?
It's like a free for all in Central Florida. Other places aren't full blown Nazi regimes today. Why should I care about anyone white if they don't care about me. Central Floridians are like monsters let from a cave. Other Southerners are just like Europeans in Europe trying to flirt all the time with bad people respectively from Florida and the US.
Also, people don't want me to feel self-pity. I feel threatened at knifepoint for "what I done."
I'm all white just not all Caucasian.
Using Other Races
Why would white people use other races to say they are better, like pretending bring American does not make them any different from Europe even outside of blood? Do they need other people to look bad to make them look good? It's like nonwhites are racial slaves.
What kind of a
What kind of a righteous person goes around tearing down others rather than building themselves up?
Voting for President of the US
Even supporters of Hillary Clinton do not want me to support and vote for her because she's an attractive woman.
Wednesday, September 21, 2016
Contest
People today seem to think that if they are good they can take from others emotionally and socially.
Parents versus Peers
Did you know people are mean to their kids and then blame their peers for it who did nothing wrong?
The Peanut Gallery
Authority is just being slow and people are challenging reasonable people to explain shit.
Who doesn't matter?
Apparently, I was dropped out.
In college after my 1st year, I was told I was nothing or wasn't worth much or something by a professor or as hinted by several professionals. They meant physically and psychologically due to brain damage from all the schooling I took on that last semester. So, what, just leave me, allow me to be poor? I was not allowed to keep my major in Music Education and was told I was also too shy to take singing, which seems important to well-rounded musicians maybe who have many interests in emotions and things in life. I know famous people who did arts and science must have been stimulated from different fields to excel in them all. Ideas come up. At easy one is artistic periods in visual art and classical music.
In college after my 1st year, I was told I was nothing or wasn't worth much or something by a professor or as hinted by several professionals. They meant physically and psychologically due to brain damage from all the schooling I took on that last semester. So, what, just leave me, allow me to be poor? I was not allowed to keep my major in Music Education and was told I was also too shy to take singing, which seems important to well-rounded musicians maybe who have many interests in emotions and things in life. I know famous people who did arts and science must have been stimulated from different fields to excel in them all. Ideas come up. At easy one is artistic periods in visual art and classical music.
The Things People Do for Amazing Individuals
They say people are beyond things etc. They only do it to some people, tho.
I wonder..
..would it be cuter on a kid?
Like, you want us older "kids" or young adults to appreciate shit like it's cute, but that doesn't make us cuter.
Like, you want us older "kids" or young adults to appreciate shit like it's cute, but that doesn't make us cuter.
I am not following Bella Thorne right now, but I might follow her later. Surprise!
I am focusing more on venues.
I am focusing more on venues.
Why me?
People see I have chemistry with people about how one's life should be and then descend in on me from out of the blue and say to break it up, relationship's only for them or not me. It happens for one and all.
"A .. ten .. tion!"
So, people are born sorting out who's gonna give them attention and knows what they're going to do?
The Bad Guys
doctors and lawyers
Did you know that's what the smartest people are supposed to study?
Edit: No offense.
Did you know that's what the smartest people are supposed to study?
Edit: No offense.
Doctors are the killers.
The pills make you need more pills.
They say don't drink juice, but soda is bad and juice prevents cancer. You're not gonna stop drinking soda altogether, man, even if you are on pills!
They say don't drink juice, but soda is bad and juice prevents cancer. You're not gonna stop drinking soda altogether, man, even if you are on pills!
The Way the World Works
It seems people born in the mid/late 1960s to Generation X can get people to do things for them when they won't for younger people, like they are trash.
Other People in the World
Some people think they can tell me to grovel over others and make it a world affair. I wonder what happened to my peers.
Wanting to Be Someone Else
Why do some people actually think they embody someone else? They are cool, but we are all different and we look different for reasons that are not the same.
TV
I am gonna watch that 1 or 2 episodes of Cutthroat Camp. I don't know that I'll watch much else now necessarily by what's on in the way of food.
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
White Baby Boomers
Baby Boomers have it all. They tell future generations like mine, XY, not to copy them. Like, if we get stimulated by hippie things, it's considered you're a nigger.
It's probably a rule for people who are selfish to benefit, who acted out too much. Also, it's to make sure other races can't do what they did.
It's probably a rule for people who are selfish to benefit, who acted out too much. Also, it's to make sure other races can't do what they did.
Note to Virginie Buscail
I love your violin playing! I hope all is well with you! I saw you played in La Valse by Ravel, also very good! I was a piano major in college for a year but just switched to beginning violin. I like Romantic Contemporary symphonic music a lot. I also connect a lot to the French culture living in the New Orleans area as a teenager. I used to wanna study organ in France! I studied music in New Orleans for a year at Loyola University. Well, thanks so much for your wonderful playing!
Contact her here: link. It came up in Google Search near the top.
Contact her here: link. It came up in Google Search near the top.
Monday, September 19, 2016
I am the accused.
It seems funny people tell me I earned all this honor, but then they just say I did something and have too much attention and start out being bad when they are just getting at me for disagreeable situations in the past.
I do not want to be told I'm getting an extra surplus of concentrated effort to communicate and never have a good time.
I do not want to be told I'm getting an extra surplus of concentrated effort to communicate and never have a good time.
Late Boomers in an Isolated *Reverie
Why do Late Boomers keep acting like they feel some perverted, pleasurable thing that no one else gets to? Why does it seem like it's because someone said to? No one should be able to say that.
*reverie - a state of being pleasantly lost in one's thoughts; a daydream. (link)
*reverie - a state of being pleasantly lost in one's thoughts; a daydream. (link)
Sunday, September 18, 2016
"Beggars can't be chosers."
Everything is for brat kids born around 1997 and 1998 who don't respect real life and are all over the tech age. My life spirals out of control into an abyss of depression
Planning It All in the End
Did you notice people, like born around 1997, secretly saying, "No, I'm good." Then, they turn around and take what's most important to you from you having it, like some wild monster. I mean, who else does that, but celebrities "in" with Ellen DeGeneres?
They act like they're all fixed up and content, when you are ready to set things straight with all.
I don't know how I feel about me finding people who are either popular or who I have a relationship with that I like and then someone famous just taking it every time. They might not do this like this with other people. These people might not even be interested when many others are, which yes I also am on this annoying constant lookout for and am sorta retracted from.
They act like they're all fixed up and content, when you are ready to set things straight with all.
I don't know how I feel about me finding people who are either popular or who I have a relationship with that I like and then someone famous just taking it every time. They might not do this like this with other people. These people might not even be interested when many others are, which yes I also am on this annoying constant lookout for and am sorta retracted from.
Giving to the Lowest of the Low
Why do people say there are people out there who simply did not do what they need to do to deserve something good?
Then, they take things from others and give it to the lowest common denominator as afore mentioned, philosophizing that it means more people will get what they want if someone gets something over others for no reason and over others who deserve it.
They think giving more to bad people means that everyone will get it because the worst could even get it, without giving it to others or not letting them have it or seeing this take place.
Disclaimer: No offense to real individuals.
Then, they take things from others and give it to the lowest common denominator as afore mentioned, philosophizing that it means more people will get what they want if someone gets something over others for no reason and over others who deserve it.
They think giving more to bad people means that everyone will get it because the worst could even get it, without giving it to others or not letting them have it or seeing this take place.
Disclaimer: No offense to real individuals.
What if..
..What if the default is telling people to experience that which is unpleasant, bad, and uncool?
Trying to Be Something You're Not
Late Boomers and probably their children appreciate life for its utmost beauty. How can someone who was not a kid at their times know that? I can understand it, I know, at least in some ways. I just feel it's something for someone else and feel tricked into giving up on living the right kind of life, like this; what they do is also "the right thing." If there's a contest for everyone else, I feel I must be being held back in some way for some reason. I feel numbed out of living life trusting anyone of my own race or the white race, the way I thought I would. I guess it's just a problem.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
Saturday, September 17, 2016
Friday, September 16, 2016
All About Late Boomers
Something's become overly obvious.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Story
There was a girl who was 20 years old. She had black and brown hair.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
Monday, September 12, 2016
Sunday, September 11, 2016
YouTube
I know 02:14-02:48 is especially good. I enjoy listening to the whole thing, and it's even more fun watching.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
The "On Ignore" Race
I just thought of a great topic that doesn't get addressed.
I was watching some religious music on YouTube for children, and I remembered maybe one of the most important things to the Catholic/Christian/Jewish church.
It is true that some people's problems are not addressed and are ignored in the world.
I am pretty certain we are hurting our brothers and sisters interested in the Catholic faith who are Asian, our beautiful, lovely Asians. Catholics think Asian ways are sinful, I'm guessing because it seems cunning, sly, and socially handicapped scientifically speaking. As a tradition, it comes up as everyone classifying it as on ignore and ^sinful^ like they can handle anything but that.
We need to reach out and pray for not just what people expect these days but what they needed all along.
I think Asians are comfortable with how they are, but it is a problem for some people of mixed race. I feel people are going in and overly promoting people of all Asian and putting down people who are mixed Asians/Chinese.
Friday, September 9, 2016
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